OF CANCER COMING BACK
I was diagnosed with an aggressive stage 3 breast cancer and it was already in all my lymph nodes in my left arm. My oncologist was very open and honest when she told me that my reality was I going to eventually die with or from cancer.
But I am free from fear.
I no longer worry about when the cancer will come back, in fact I hardly even think about it anymore.
That doesn’t mean I just clicked my fingers and the fear disappeared. I used to be crippled by the fear of my cancer returning, or that the cancer had never left my body and no one had spotted it. If I got an ache in my finger I thought it was cancer, if I got a sore throat I thought it was cancer, if my eye twitched I thought it was cancer.
Consumed by that kind of fear is no way to live. Whether you are in remission from cancer or still living with it, the fact remains that you are still here. You are alive and you cannot waste that by constantly being afraid.
“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear,
but the triumph over it.
The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid,
but he who conquers fear.”
– Nelson Mandela