I never used to be full of love and light.
In fact I was full of darkness and self hate for most of my life.
For the majority of my life I despised myself.
I looked in the mirror and hated what I saw.
I looked at my life and only focused on my failures, my mistakes and my flaws.
So if you had told me ten years ago that I’d be as happy as I am now.
I’d call you a nutter and tell you to bugger off.
And I’m not talking that false kind of happiness….happiness from being rich, or finding a soul mate or the perfect job.
That kind of happy is great but it’s dependent on something outside yourself.
So if the money goes, the soul mate leaves or you lose the dream job.
The happiness goes with it.
But the kind of happiness I have… that kind of happiness doesn’t go anywhere.
Because it lives deep within my soul.
Sure I still have bad days, I feel down and get overcome by negativity.
But it’s short lived, and that solid foundation of peace and joy is always there underneath it all.
I need you to know that if I got to this place then you can get to this place too.
No matter how crap you feel today.
No matter the hardship and heartache you’ve endured, you can get to where I am.
The first step is believing it’s possible.
The first step is seeing that tiny speck of hope in the distance and walking towards it.
And when you fall down don’t stay down.
Get back up and just keep going.
And if you're struggling to find the light then contact me, because I can help.