That is the question.
I’ve been single a long time, and 99% of that time I’ve been a okay with that.
I have an abundance of love within me, and all around me. I don’t need my other half because I already whole, and I certainly don’t need to found because I am most certainly not lost.
But… having said all that, some days it would just be nice to have that someone.
And when those days come my ego gets excited and starts jumping up and down in malicious glee.
“Dating apps! Dating apps! Dating apps!” he sings, “The man of your dreams is just a right swipe away!”
But the core part of me, the pure part of me, the love part of me immediately sounds the warning bell.
My ego loves dating apps because the disappointment and rejection keeps me right where he wants me…. separated and sad.
The superficial physicality element of the apps, judging only on appearances, is perfection to the ego as soul connections are his kryptonite.
I’m not saying dating apps are bad, I’m saying dating apps are bad for me.
They feed into my insecurities and magnify them. And yet here I am momentarily contemplating downloading them all over again!?!
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.
I already know dating apps are not the route for me. The divine part of me knows that’s not where I am to meet my soul partner.
But at times I get impatient. I want what I want and I want it now.
And that’s my lesson here. Letting go of the impatience and urgency, and trusting that my Higher Power has everything taken care of and it will happen as and when it should.