For most of my life, I didn't live.
I survived.
I grew up in constant survival mode; my nervous system always braced and ready for the next impact.
I learned how to be small, to disappear, so I could feel safe.
I felt too much, so I always apologised for who I was.
For my sensitivity, my passion, my wildness, my fire, my truth, my needs, my depth, my emotions. I constantly tried to be different, because my childhood trained me to believe I was the problem.
But I was never the problem.
Abandoning myself constantly was the problem.
Disconnection from my own heart and soul was the problem.
Carrying my past and trauma everywhere I went life a badge of honour was the problem.
Living in constant fear, scarcity, lack, doubt, was the problem.
I moved through my own life like a ghost inside my skin. Present, but not really there.
Alive, but dead inside.
Disconnected from life and myself.
Two divorces later.
Two failed businesses later.
Two suicide attempts later.
After losing my hair and breast to cancer.
In the darkest of dark nights of the soul.
I realised I had two choices.
Either I could spend the rest of my life searching for something or someone to save me.
Or.
I could go on a rescue mission inside myself and bring myself back to life.
And thank f•ck I chose the latter.
Because that's when my life became spectacular.
Not because of anything or anyone else.
Because of me.
I retrieved my truth.
I connected to the heart and soul of myself.
And everything in my world became technicolour.
What I do doesn't have a name, label, or fit neatly into a box.
I am a pioneer.
I am a maverick.
I am revolutionary.
I consider myself to be a pirate who sets sail into inner worlds to help you retrieve yourself.
I consider myself to be new kind of Peter Pan for the modern age, a Willy Wonka of wellbeing, a middle-aged woman bringing magic and technicolour back to life for the whole of humanity.
And none of this is me.
It's just the creativity that now pours through me.
I'm a tour guide into your inner being.
Showing you the way home to yourself.
Without it being dark, and heavy and intense.
Life is heavy enough as it is.
I don't believe healing has to be too.
I'm here to prove that transforming your life can be the most delicious adventure of your life.
Come meet who you really are beneath the masks, the noise of the world, and the lies you were taught to believe about yourself.
Come have a juicy, real, honest, beautiful and unconditionally loving relationship with yourself.
Because that’s the key to a happy life.
You're the key.
The treasure chest lives inside of you.
And I can lead you there.
